This blog post is from Libby.
I know that Chad is the writer in the family,
but now it is my turn. "He restores my
soul." These words kept going through my
head all night last night and today. You
see, this time last year I was sitting in a chemo chair receiving pictures
from Chad because he was able to go to EW’s pumpkin day and I was stuck
hooked up to meds that were “making me better." I will be flat out honest… I was not a happy camper. Cancer had not only taken me away from a fun
day with my favorite son, but it also took away my chemo date for the day. It was hard sitting in that chair all alone
not understanding what was going on in my life.
I was told that the chemo should have worked and
would be gone. Unfortunately, to all our surprise, the tumor was shrinking but the cells were getting
stronger. That is when they had decided
to start the three day chemo process with one day spent in the infusion lab, then two days in the
hospital for a 24 hour infusion. We were also given the news
that a stem cell transplant was in our future.
I say all of this to give you a window into my
attitude and situation last year. Well,
today…He not only restored my soul but He gave me more than I could have ever imagined. Not only was I able to hang
out with my favorite 4 year-old, but also my favorite 3 year-old during pumpkin day at school. It was a fun day of music, a petting zoo, hayrides,
a pumpkin patch, etc.
As I watched my kiddos move from each station, I was overwhelmed with love for our Father. So many times I felt cheated during last year’s battle. I would have little "pity parties" wondering what in the world was going on or what I was supposed to be taking away from all of this. Today, I took-in every single moment that I was able to share with my kiddos. To be honest, there are not a lot of pictures of every moment of our adventure because I was soaking them up in my heart. I did not want to miss anything. As we head into the holiday season, I am challenged to be engaged and to love my family fiercely. There is so much going on with the world around us, I just want to love and protect what God has entrusted into my care. I want them to know without a shadow of doubt that their Jesus, Wife, and Mommy loves them with every ounce of her heart, and then some. Seeing where I was last year, and knowing that God KNEW AND PLANNED for me to have a day like today, how can I not trust His heart for me and the days to come?!?
