Sunday I was thinking during church how thankful for
everything God has, is, and will be doing in Team Weigand. I just started thinking how truly amazing He
has been in giving me everting I have ever wanted-a husband and children that
glorified Him (that is our prayer). It
made me think how every time this year I am reminded and thankful during February
and March and how odd that is since everyone else is so thankful during
Thanksgiving. Then normal people use
January to remember and have a brand, new, fresh start. Then God spoke and said, “this is your
season.” You see for 34 years…I never
once had a true valentine. I always had
the friend/class parties. And if you
know my mom and dad, they would always makes it special. Even to this day mom makes it fun for
me. I have always loved the amazing example
of a mother she is on how to love my family passionately. But for years, I would cry out to God, “Why
not me?” I would wonder if I am not good
enough, cute enough, skinny enough? I
would even ask if I was not being obedient to God. So many years…so many questions…so many
tears. Every year there would be silence
from God on answers. I was always
frustrated because I knew and believed He heard me. Even asking if this was not supposed to be my
desire, then please take it away from me.
Then in 2011, that all changed.
Chad Weigand became my favorite and forever valentine. He spoiled me on that 1st day and he has not stopped for 12 years now! I
began thanking God that he was worth the wait and understanding a little more
about God’s protection.
Then I
began thinking about what else this season brings. On my 40th birthday (Feb 19), that
is when the check up that changed my entire life. The cancer journey started. I remember those days being so surreal after
that one phone call that changed everything.
Now these months were full of chemo, check ups, scans, and lots of
waiting. It is funny how looking back at
being single God was preparing me (without me realizing it) to be ready to be
alone in hospital beds or in doctor appointments. Do not get me wrong, Chad was there 1000% of
the time, but we had 2 little sweet blessings that needed him too. I remember asking “Why now”? Why could we not find cancer before
them. As I was watching them play, I
heard God say, “If you had, you would not have them here.” You see, chemo put me into menopause. Those moments would be the promises I would
hold on to as I sat in my hospital bed at night or in the quietness of the
day. On March 3, 2016, I read Proverbs
3:5-7. We all know that it says to trust
in the Lord, but no one looks at it when it continues to say, “it will bring
healing to your bones.” I latched onto
that and never let go of that promise. I
knew then I would be healed, but the road was going to be full of unknowns and
hardships. Being single taught me how to
push in fully to God when my heart was broken.
I would see Him instead of my circumstances. I would rely on Him and not anyone else. Again,
Team Weigand was there but they could not give me the joy and peach that only came
from my God nor did we want that to happen.
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As April
begins my heart still is in awe at what all that happened. It has been 6 years now…seems like a lifetime
ago. I never want to forget those hard
moments that turned into precious ebenezers in my faith. I want to encourage anyone that is going
through or questioning what in the world is going on and if God is even there
or hearing you. Please do not loose hope
or faith. He is there and hears
you. His love for you is overwhelming
even when you do not feel it. Be
encouraged and do not give up!
